The Melkor/Nienna thing, though??? …I’m intrigued.

It’s one of those ‘long have you been ruminating in my head- years and years- but not a word have I written’. You know those fics.

So during that period of the First Age when Melkor is imprisoned in Mandos, Nienna visits him in hopes of rehabilitation to fuck. In that Tartarus like part of Mandos where Melkor is imprisoned, it is solitary confinement and sensory deprivation. The sense of floating detachment -spatial disorientation- is hard for me to figure out how to tilt one way or the other, because part of the conceit is that it’s pitch dark- Melkor will only know Nienna is even there when she touches him (and Nienna as the goddess of winter as opposed to Vána, Nessa, Yavanna is something that I adore from the calendar and season name hints, so everything about her is that icy touch, that sharp bite of air too cold for human bodies to cope with, but also the strange comforting muffled quiet feeling of a snow-covered place). And only when she touches him, or the drip of her tears, that restores the sense of feeling and spatial awareness to him. And he’s bound, so he can’t initiate anything- major dubcon to this fic, one of the other reasons it has yet to be written. But Nienna is trying to show affection, and part of the ‘meta layer’ of their interactions is that she needs him and his actions, because her role and identity is tied up in the grief and mourning of the results of his actions/rebellions- if he does nothing or doesn’t exist, she has nothing new. Which he taunts her with, and plays on her self-loathing that she comes for him and so desperately needs and desires him. And yet- she knows and he doesn’t want to admit to himself/ave enough self-awareness and weakness to admit- he needs her. He needs an audience to play his acts of defiance to, someone to conquer and dominate, someone to rebel against, someone to brag and lord over. And he is terrified of the possibility that she might not come back, because she’s the only one that is willing to visit him, the only break in the monotonous void, and so he’s trying to calculate how much false change of heart and repentance can he feed to her that she won’t see through so she keeps coming back without admitting to himself how he enjoys her company and secret fear that it might be true. And it’s a Melkor sex fic so have to include an Arises in Might pun, and that his role was supposed to be that who aids and enhances in other Valar’s workings, so he can’t masturbate but can give Nienna a great orgasm … 

Yeah, that fic.