So the Batfam is totally a fandom, for the purposes of that ask-meme, right?

One of my ‘secret fandoms’ that I finally decided to go ‘fuckit, hold onto your dash and prepare for a ton of reblogs’ And because its comics fandom I don’t feel shame in admitting that my exposure to ‘canon’ is mostly online fandom, the animated shows (and some of them I only saw in bits and pieces two decades ago), and slowly reading what volumes I can find that sound interesting to me. (I read Morrison’s Batman Inc and only liked a few individual issues and am beginning to think he’s that ‘overrated author a la how Frank Millar used to be’). And it’s DC comics, so reboot after reboot and editorial and writer shifts – I’ve been spoiled by manga where there’s mostly one writer/one vision. Or that writers that don’t like or only shallowly understand the characters have them, and that only certain things are ignored or retconed out and that the format is inherently soap opera so it’s one fight/crisis to the next with no closure.

Off the top of my head answers:

  • the character i least understand

Aside from Bombshells (rec!) I haven’t read things with Kate Kane, canon or fanfic, so my understanding for her is limited and I want to fix that. Same with some of the other side/fringe characters. What I’ve seen of Nu52 has changed Barbra Gordon so much that I really wonder why another character wasn’t used and idk she doesn’t interest me that way she normally should/would.

Thank god for the growing backlash against Crazy Steve! Batman. Why is grim miserable loner Batman seen as cool?

Joker’s Daughter except for Bombshells. Why does this character exist?

  • interactions i enjoyed the most

Bruce/Selina (I love Hush among other reasons for the Mr and Mrs Kent-Lane and BatCat – do I hate the editorial mandate against happy relationships and marriage? yes, yes I do.) Anything brotherly between the boys (Daddy Dick raising Damian, Jason part of the family Morrison writing him is mostly dismissed by the fandom thank god, stalker affection-starved Tim suddenly the middle-child), expand that to family interactions with everyone. Cass with anyone. Again, Batfam you come and stay for what characterization and interactions the fandom gives, not canon.

  • the character who scares me the most

The editors.

  • the character who is mostly like me

I hate questions like these. I wish I could say Alfred, especially as there’s this snarky enabler in me, plus I’m not daring enough for daredevil crime-fighting.

  • hottest looks character

One of those really depends on the artist thing. The joke that Bruce’s Robin program is Wayne’s Next Top Model is true though. Dick is hot and not just his ass. Jason, especially Lost Days, is so pretty like dayum son and I appreciate guys a little more ripped (Arkham Knight unf) so that he’s usually drawn a bit bulkier and muscled than Dick thank you. Tim as drawn by Marcus To has the best hair. Lumberjack beard Bruce I admit does more for me than regular Bruce, even if it makes me confuse him for Convergence Superman. (On the ladies side: Selina, Matron!Helena B., Cass, Steph, and most everyone when drawn in the Bombshells universe but that’s also because the retro victory curls and fashion adds to the hotness)

  • one thing i dislike about my fave character

Y’all need therapy. (dodging which is the favorite. Okay right now it’s probably Jason and boy if it wasn’t the anger and abandonment issues manifesting too violently it’s the dehumanizing judgement to take lives due to over-identifying with victims … and that’s when he’s written well)

  • one thing i like about my hated character

Who do I hate the most? ummm, Joker has a nice iconic color scheme, Thomas Elliot gives character interaction as a peer for Young!Bruce

The Court of Owls gives a great Crime Syndicate or Evil AU Grayson origin/costume power set, even if it’s ridiculous in the sense of ancient conspiracy Illuminati in regular canon ‘verse.

  • a quote or scene that haunts me

In Under the Red Hood the quote that slayed me the most in an uncomfortable way wasn’t from the painful final scene (which oh gods, the delivery in the animated version: all the tears) but Alfred’s reminiscence (emphasis mine): 

“Master Jason’s had a condescending practice of referring to the costumed criminal elements as “dress ups”. He also noted that such individuals did not fear the Batman the way the street toughs and mafioso did. The “dress ups” did not believe that he was a monster. I explained to Jason that he was correct, but only to a certain degree … Some believe he is just a man. Others believe he is an army. Some think he can’t be injured. Others believe he can’t die. But the boy did say something to me that chilled me to the bone..even then. “They all know he won’t kill them.” I’m not sure what frightened me more. the observation by one as young as Jason that power could but levied with the threat of murder. Or the fact that he was most likely correct.

They killed Jason off because he knew this was a comic book universe

  • a death that left me indifferent

I haven’t read the issues in the new 52 with the deaths (or faked deaths). That it’s comics and only dead if the editors and writers don’t want to deal with your character or story anyone lessens the pain. But Dick Grayson’s faked death for bad storytelling (and Injustice’s death by rock is so absurd). 

Probably any villain deaths, if they happen.

  • a character i wish died but didn’t

Joker. Over-exposed. Agent of chaos to the well-ordered Bat yes, which could be a gimmick picked up by other villains. Enough with the Joker. he has become such a crutch to writers; I’m sooo tired of stories using him. Batman has other big-name villains to market and I don’t find the Joker himself interesting. ‘One Bad Day’ could be Dent’s theme as well as Mister Napier.

  • my ship that never sailed

Even Robins. The rare pair of writers’ missed opportunities (look she “died” right before he came back, her retcon’ed healing trip to Africa was one easy additional retcon to ‘dumped in a Lazarus pit by Jason’ and the mob boss he went after was the one that tortured her – the whole under the red hood thing could have easily been expanded to involve her conflicted feelings of revenge as well. Similar backgrounds and personalities – there’s the same rage there. Dead robins, bad robins were the ones that weren’t rich boys? Fuck you, DC. The reactions from the rest of the Batfam, especially Tim – and that Jason would be petty enough/ totally in-character for and be used for revenge!sex. Steph smacking some sense into him and providing some support structure, Jason’s adoration for strong women giving Steph needed support and validation. but mostly because it’d be hot, break Bruce’s brain, connect the resurrections, and yeah here’s my guilty pleasure rare-pair give me the AUs or what the hell let’s write some)

things y’all don’t know about me meme

@anghraine tagged me for this meme like…three days ago? idk I can’t tell time except hourly. But as I have a lot of memes to get through, let’s do this one!

When you get this, write 3 things your followers probably don’t know about you and then tag 10 people.

  1. At that tiny private elementary school I attended between the ages of seven and ten, with a grand total of six girls in my age level, I was the first one that puberty hit as so that compared to my classmates I had a visible chest. And as that was yet one thing to many to get teased and ostracized by the other kids about, my self-conscious nine and ten-year-old self, on the advice of my then best friend, started wearing vests to hide and downplay that feature. And it was the nineties and I wasn’t the most fashion-conscious and up-to-date kid with a mother that didn’t dress her daughters in stylish as opposed to tacky and decades out-of-date clothing…yeah a lot of turtlenecks with tapestry-print vests.
  2. In case you’re wondering, no my boobs didn’t grow much after that. I wear a 34C.

    There.

    My sisters, godblesstheirwretchedsouls, think it should be a B. I’m pretty sure cup size was something none of my followers knew about me.

  3. As we’re talking elementary school me, I owned a huge collection of Babysisters Club (originally the younger reader books starting Karen, then almost every published regular line plus the specials and the mystery spin-offs) books. Y’all ain’t gonna be surprised that I identified with Mary-Ann the most?

Melian/Thingol or Beren/Luthien?

Beren/Lúthien!

I adore them both, but Beren does get over his “listen to your lady, she has the better ideas” problems, and individually on their own both are so awesome and interesting and together hell yes! Both couples are though very similar and not just in the homeless dude wandering in the woods finds goddess and she decides ‘fuck higher plane of existence, this idiot is perfect’. Though the other is easier to write for, Beren/Lúthein is the OTP above all others.

prompt: Padmé?

Aw damn I don’t want to write actual Star Wars fic. So to disappoint you, okay which one of my many SW fusions and original stories inspired by Anidala do I pick? Oldest original fic it is! (digs through old files to find fourteen-year-old notes) –

Elizain calculated she has only a few hours left, perhaps no more than three, before the army brought troops into her home. Narrow roads through the densely forested mountains would hinder the use of any of those newfangled tanks, she hoped, and she instructed that trees be felled across the road to slow the advance. If it had been winter, there might have been more time. Volunteers watched the road, but Elizain knew her barony had few weapons and fewer people to halt the divisions sent by the new dictator. What guns her people had were mostly for hunting deer and bear, though one veteran smuggled a machine gun back from the trenches. Elizain did not ask how or why, but it now sat propped against the low wall in front of the ornamental fountain with its imported water lotuses. And she could not trust that all her people were loyal, that someone might not betray her. Instead she bade everyone to flee to the coal mines as she stayed with the few of her household that refused to abandon her. The butler’s gold sash glittered from the window as he berated the short groom over the machine gun’s ammunition. In a few minutes Elizain decided she would go down and convince them to flee via the mines into the mountains. She had a trump card to sway the ones that have stayed with her. Two, to be precise, and the second of which began to cry from the crib beside her.

Her sister’s daughter was safe; a handwritten message from Mayisa confessed that the girl had not been with Elizain’s sister and brother-in-law when the bomb exploded their car, though old Astride who had first been nurse to Elizain and Emalé was dead. Fearing more assassinations, Elizain’s ex-maid and dear friend, had hidden the girl with her, would claim Tioun as her own, and as mistress to one of the politicians that sold out to the new elected dictator, Mayisa and the girl should stay safe as long as the toddler’s true identity remained hidden and Mayisa’s paramour continued to collaborate with the new government. Elizain’s scornful thoughts were, she knew, unfair to Hovsep, whose own lands were both larger and closer to the capital. And if Elizain knew there could have been any hope of it, she would have paid the same lip service to save her people from soldiers of the dictator. Political principles had a point upon which they broke, the young woman discovered. Emalé was the one who had truly believed in democracy, in the crumbling Diet. A great irony, but the whole world felt like a farce.

Elizain’s husband was a Knight, one of the most famous ones at that, and whose political sensibilities lay with the worker’s unions. Another irony and one reason among many that her romance with Egan had been half-hidden scandal. The marriage itself had been kept secret to everyone but Elizain’s sister and a trusted few. Her butler knew, and Egan’s old master and fellow Knight, but while everyone who listened to high society’s whispers knew who had fathered her son, she was seen as the wild shame of Baroness Emalé and her more respectable husband. Not that the third son of railroad baron and the orphan daughters of a minor barony in the highland backwoods meant much to the high gentry. Respect for the ancient order and Egan’s status as an outsider among his fellow Knights, despite his prodigy, shielded Elizian and Egan from open censure as long as Elizain stayed on the barony deep in the highland ridges with her perceived bastard son.

Sons, now. Hektor was not a day old, small and red and wrinkled and crying. He had Egan’s blue eyes. His brother, resting in the maid’s arms with tiny face wrinkled in a furious frown, had dark eyes like Elizain and her family, like his cousin Tioun hidden in the capital. Helben could sense the tension in the room, the unhappiness from his mother and his new brother crying.

The last telegraph from her husband, before his capture and disappearance, before the assassination and the madness that followed, the coup and counter-coup and the purge of the Knights blamed for the defeat and crippling peace treaty, had been excitement for the pregnancy. The last time Egan had seen his family in person had been right before Helben’s first birthday. Now both boys would have little chance to remember either parent. If they lived, it would not matter. Elizain had to believe that. It was her only hope.

Evnika had only been Elizain’s personal maid for two months, but the girl had spoken of the farm on the other side of the smokey mountains where she came from, and a beau whose brother also served in the war. The twang of Evnika’s accent clung like the scent of wood-smoke and moonshine, of ridge-lines turned blue in the fog and roads that outsiders bypassed. A purse of money and an oath of loyalty would send the girl back to that farm and her beau, this time with a pair of real shoes and two babes and a cover-story about a dead brother and wife. 

Turning from the window, Elizain removed the saint’s pendant from her neck and pulled it over Helben’s head, tucking the wooden medallion with Holy Elza’s lighting bolt under his shirt. The last terrible irony was this patron that Elizain had been named for, as her older sister had been named for the gentler aspect. The last queen of the judge-king emperor, killed by her husband driven mad by the devil, her vengeful ghost still hunted the last judge-king with bolts of lightning, as the judge-king as a possessing ghost sought his own revenge. The mad star-dog in his suit of black armor, the bi-fractured star-queen, and the fallen god of the long-dead empire – Elizain had never liked the tragic story the way Emalé had. Egan believed in those stories of god-spirits and possessing spirits, of the repentant judge-king hunting for the shards of old devil. Evnika with her blue ridge tongue believed in similar stories of spirits that haunted the hearts of the mountains and red-lipped women that never died. She wore her belief in a tricolor band around her wrist, the mountain spirits deep in the coal mines and fairy women of snow and blood that hid her from the devils and broken gods. If those spirits could hide Elizain and her sister’s children from the dictator’s hunters, the young woman would pray to them. She was desperate enough to pray to the judge-king’s ghost as well. Egan said asking that one for vengeance had been a double-edged sword, but Elizain could not muster the heart to care. Her legs were not steady enough to walk to the door and down the stairs, let alone across the grounds, but she could send Evinka with the babes out to enlist the butler and groom to help carry the children to safety. Her innards aching as they had not after the first birth, Elizain knew what time she had left was limited. She had no lightning, only enough purloined dynamite from the mine as to conceal what would disappear. Egan’s old master had not been on broadsheets of the executed, and he knew about the tricolor communities deep in the mountains. If he still lived, he might find the boys one day and tell them about their father, about their mother and cousin and the Knights that safeguarded freedom.

Rules: Answer the questions you are comfortable with and ignore the ones you are not, and tag eight people to do the same!

@crocordile tagged me for this meme a bit ago and I’m finally getting around to answering it (sorry!). 

1. When did you join Tumblr, and when did you became active and started posting (broken down in case if different)? I joined in May of 2013, though I was lurking on various tags and then a few blogs ( @kareenvorbarra, @crocordile, @adenydd, @juvelone and a few others that I still follow and a few I never have)

2. Would you reblog your first ever Tumblr post after responding to these questions? Well, I’ve reblogged the third ever tumblr post I’ve made (aka the first Silmarillion Sigil post). The first two were very short ‘hello there, Silm fan here’ posts.

3. How many blogs do you follow? tumblr says 105. Many of these are inactive or aesthetic-esque theme blogs posting photos of period clothing or weaponry or Paleolithic animals (of which i need more. and more general art history). Some are multi-fandom or focused on my non-Silm fandoms. the rest are tolkien, mostly of the corner of it I allow through the Girdle ;p

4. How do you find blogs to follow; do you explore Tumblr by topic to find interesting ones, pick from the tags the ones who look interesting, see them on your dash via your current follows – or how? A good quarter to third of my dash are favorite fan artists and I need to add more. Aside from that, usually by checking who my dash is reblogging from – friends and recs of people I already follow, some followed back because I noticed they were liking and reblogging a great majority of my posts (I still have a few faithful non-mutuals that I treasure).

5. Do you have any other blogs, and if so, why and what are they about?  I have a couple saved urls : combinations of silmarillion + sigil + squirrel and a few for my OCs. Side blogs that I use/have used are one for my old Sims 2 content and a poor neglected one for very old original story/art. And the vent steam over wank personal side-blog that is rarely used and more for personal stuff than any fandom drama. Again, 99% of my posts are to the main one.

6. How often do you change the theme of your blog and how man themes have you gone through overall (as far as you remember)? Once I picked the theme I’m using nowadays (after I think maybe two or three changes), it has stayed this layout for …two years? idk. I do change the color scheme every few months and the heading image. Not as often as my avatar, but I do keep that to a shuffle between my various sigils (and only a few favorites) as to keep some consistency. -I do wonder if that bugs anyone, that I don’t keep to one icon?

7. Do you customise your themes or apply a theme as is? Aside from the personalizing of colors, I did tweak the theme to have page numbers and note counts, small user friendly additions. But I’m not savvy with code, so I can only do tiny things.

8. Do you automatically follow-back, or do you check the blogs of all your new followers, or only if they appear interesting? I rarely add new people to my dash, but when I get in the mood to expand my dash, i check through my followers’ blogs to see if they tag, if the majority of their posts match my interests, and especially if it’s a tolkien blog, if they have what I call my inner ‘Maedhros fanart threshold’. 😉

9. How many of the blogs you started following within the first few weeks/months of joining Tumblr you still follow (all, most, some, hardly any)? Most. Some are inactive. A couple I’ve stopped following after a few months.

10. How actively do you use Tumblr’s messaging system? Every few weeks they’ll be a day where I use it to message someone and have a conversation for a bit, or even juggle three people at once, but then two days later nothing.

11. How many drafts do you have currently saved – or do you post/reblog straight away without saving drafts? 14 drafts. some of first drafts of posts I’ve already made, or incomplete meme responses, meta posts i’ll never get around to, or some in-jokes to original stories.

12. Do you use Queue when posting? Rarely. Usually for weekends when I know I’m travelling. I’m terrible, I know.

13. Do you use XKit, and if so, what are your favourite features in it? You have to to have a functional tumblr. YES. Among the features I know I love, the one-click reply, the in-bow fixes when that was still working, PostBlock, Tag Viewer, the various Anti-Ads, the fix for /tagged/ instead of /search/ , and various tweaks like the wrap-around tags.

14. Do you use tracked tags, and if so, what are your favourite tags you check most frequently. Before tumblr changed it so the tracked tags would pull random posts with said tracked tags on one’s dash, I had a long list of them of which half was minor characters. i checked those infrequently. Nowadays I don’t have any official tracked tags, but I do have a few I’ll check for by typing out tumblr.com/tagged/…. Those I save for whatever fandom I’m currently having a revival of interest without wanting to spam my dash.

15. Do you use tracked blogs, and if so, how many blogs do you track? Nada.

16. Do you keep your Tumblr secret from people you know in real life? AHAHA, yes. 

17. A) Have you ever blocked anyone? B) Do you have anyone blocked currently, and if so, how many? I have a handful of blocked and blacklisted blogs, of which I hope they are mutual. Fandom related. Going in I wanted to avoid interacting with a large section of the Silm fandom – my lurking on tumblr was very early exposure to the fandom and seeing that the attitudes towards the text and various characters was almost 180° my views (some of the wank disgusted me) and a more radical version of trends I’d vaguely been aware of from other corners of the fandom, so i tried to stick to the bloggers that shared my interests in the characters I did like (the majority minus the juggernaut fan-favorites) and sympathetic towards the female characters.

18. Are you (to the best of your knowledge) being blocked by anyone, and if so, how many, and do you know why? See above. I avoid instead of confront people – I have learned from other people about blogs that have mocked or complained on side-blogs about me, but I blithely assume that has stopped or that it doesn’t happen or won’t because I have my very quiet corner and I don’t try to play BNF. Ignore my existence and I do my best to ignore yours type of deal. 

19. Do you use blacklist, and if so, what do you blacklist against? Long list. Very long. Mostly pairings, a few people, a few fandoms just so they don’t dominate my dashboard (doctor who and hannibal – I’ll click on the posts to accept them, but I like having the option). A lot of tags connected to politics – tumblr is my de-stress to get away from that. Movies to block spoilers until I have a chance to see them in theaters, then i remove that blacklist tag.

20. Have you ever made a RL friend through Tumblr, someone who have also met in real life? No- y’all are too far away and my recent-ish trips haven’t been to the right places and times with any free-time. However if anyone is able to come to the South-by-Southwest Music Festival in Austin this year, that is the most likely and possible way to meet. ;p

wip ff thingy: wound!

I open my mouth to say something hateful to her, anything to wound her and stop her mothering of me, but the wind blows again, harsh and stinking of smoke and ash.

And here’s the full scene because it’s one of those old original stories and thus y’all probably never get the context otherwise:

Elderflower turns over her shoulder to see that I too am in the meadow. Her smile is so sad I feel an echo in my heart. “How is your uncle?” she asks across the cold air, and the brightness in her eyes when I know why she asks and why she hopes and why she cries is not something I want to deal with. This mountain of pain belongs to them; I refuse to shoulder any of it.

I think she sees this in my hard face.

The willow sticks sway in her grasp, brushing against her lonely face.

“Be careful, He-that-Roars-like-the-Mountain,” again she cautions me, and I am angry with her concern. I open my mouth to say something hateful to her, anything to wound her and stop her mothering of me, but the wind blows again, harsh and stinking of smoke and ash. The willow branches rattle like dry bones and rake against her face.

A terrible thing has happened.

Lady Elderflower feels the premonition clearer than me, for her hands fall to her sides, dumping the white bone-branches.

I see her face under the shadowed moon, a score of decades falling upon her like a torrent of spring water. Deep groves and lines have wrinkled her face, her cheeks have shrunken in, and the light behind her eyes has broken. I see her as she shall become. She looks at me.

The moon reappears; the illusion or vision or whatever it was dissipates like a tiny forgotten ripple.

“Go back to you bed, Shouter,” Lady Elderflower tells me in voice she has never used before. Her eyes will not look up to me.

I vow I shall stay free of midnight strolls for the rest of my life.

fall, bake, leaf

Pieces of brown hair framed her face, and as she turned her head to look at the shattered pots and flowers he had crushed in his fall, he could see the caul of silver mesh studded with seed pearls capping her hair and one long plait braided down her back.

Sure, the craftsman’s prattle was continuous and full of information that Elwê could not decipher, and it made no difference to him where the other had found the clay he was molding or how thin to make the coils or just what wood shavings were best to line the fire pit to bake the vessels.

Not that they were dark and leafless, but the very shape was subtly wrong, until one saw that the branches were roots, and it was as if the trees had been flipped, trunks going into the black earth of death’s gate and the tapering forking roots reached out into the colorless gray sky and shadow moon.

Do you ship Kenshin/Kaoru? If so, that for the ship meme. If not, then Kaoru or your favorite Kenshin character for the second meme. :)

You bet I do! Somewhere in my tags I have my post of all my boringly het mostly canon RuroKen ships, but they’re #2 on my ‘ships for this series.

  • when I started shipping it if I did: When my good friend at the time (this would have been freshmen or maybe sophmore year of high school) had a sleepover where we watched her dvd of the first season of the anime. I was hooked on the series and looked up maigo-chan’s online transcripts for the manga and my birthday that year was marathoning the Kyoto Arc. So…the first episode, of course. “I asked for Kenshin the Wanderer, not the Battousai.”
  • my thoughts: FUCKING FIREFLIES MAKE ME SOB okay any of my reblogged posts for their tag, but that they can be summed up as “homeless mass murderer/assassin becomes house-husband for his landlady so he doesn’t have to pay rent” and that’s beautiful
  • What makes me happy about them: inverted gender roles, an atoner with little self-worth discovering that he can have happiness and a lonely girl creating a found family, that they have some hiccups on the abandonment and self-worth issues (and a death or two) but there isn’t this long drawn-out will-they-won’t-they and they are so good and healing and supportive for each other
  • What makes me sad about them: The fandom shipping war between Kenshin/Tomoe and Kenshin/Kaoru and the pitting of the ladies against each other was gross. Also the flanderization and belittling of Kaoru – so uncool.
  • things done in fanfic that annoys me: Sex-god Kenshin. Bashing of other characters. Making this huge difference/split personality between ‘Battousai’ and ‘Kenshin’ and that Kaoru is ill-suited because she doesn’t understand/is afraid of B. 
  • things I look for in fanfic: It’s been decades since I was actively reading RuroKen fic – which is funny because it was the first fandom I searched online for fics of and I read through the section in fanfiction.net. Mostly at this point fun setting AUs and those have always been my weakness.
  • Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: I have no problem with past Kenshin/Tomoe, though in the Meiji Era idk. I’m definitely more accepting of Kaoru/Sano than Kaoru/Enishi
  • My happily ever after for them: First of all, like any RuroKen fan, that second OVA is so not canon we do not speak of it. Kenji doesn’t turn horribly evil, though I’m okay with arrogant little shit spoiled momma’s boy. Still dealing with late Meiji and Taisho so not too tragic yet, but we know it’s not the rosiest future. Still, K/K grow old together, die peacefully in their sleep.
  • who is the big spoon/little spoon: I never thought about it. probably kenshin the big spoon/ kaoru little – but I could very easily see it the other way around
  • what is their favorite non-sexual activity: Kenshin does laundry while watching Kaoru train her students. Going out to eat at the Akabeko.