Faelindis and Faelivrin

They both agree Gwindor was really fine.

(Okay, crack: There is a book with the hottest men among the Eldar (and later Men) ranked by name, entries in competing penmanship. Gwenniel doesn’t participate with it really, even with both Galuven (solid 10 or 9, maybe 9.5 if he smiled more) and Gadwar (7 / 56 …wait, now we’ve seen him shirtless – 7.5/7.5 told you) courting her. Faelivirn likes them tall and dark and nicely muscled and charismatic and long hair and light eyes, Faelindis likes a sense of humor and dark eyes and doesn’t mind red-brown hair. Aunt Galadriel has excellent taste. Ethir is sort of cute, Finduilas doesn’t like Faron’s crooked smile (really, an 8?), it’s a crying shame Tacholdir is only interested in men, but they should totally ask for his opinions about the all important list. They awkwardly agree never to rate Finrod.)

Fingon just to mess with u hahaha ;)))

Fingon is a classist snob, but not from any malice or arrogance, not in the same way Celegorm and Curufin are, not like them to call for the extermination of a people out of hatred and bruised pride, doesn’t see humans as merely servants and lesser beasts (though that vague assurance of his superiority and a patronizing ignorance and attitude towards mortals). It’s ignorance. It’s that Fingon doesn’t really think of others outside of those few he clings to as friends. The few humans he actually interacts with are the only to morph from this vague awareness to oh yeah they’re real people and have a mind/soul like a elf does. He rushes in and slaughters the Teleri because he doesn’t know any of them personally, but he knows his cousins and he has a huge blind-spot for the friends he likes- if he likes someone they must be good people, because he thinks of himself as a good person, and therefore as a good person he wouldn’t like someone who wasn’t also a good person. He doesn’t do well with people that are not fundamentally like him, or that people he likes aren’t like him in experience and values. Misunderstands and rifts happen if that assumption is tested too much. He has inherited all of FInwë’s pettiness along with that sort of magnetic charisma that makes him seem like-able. He, unlike his brother Turgon, is not a extrovert who finds it very easy to make friends, to relate to strangers like Vanyar scribes that have worked closely with Anairë’s family from well before Fingon was born, or with Aunt Eärwen and the Teleri family friends. (He’s not close to his mom or her friends, obviously). Fingon does cling to those friends he has, because they are so rare and irreplaceable. He likes outdoor activities, horseback-riding and archery. His is not long conversations, holding parties and networking with causal acquaintances – he can smile at people and put on a less awkward face, but he doesn’t enjoy it, the politicking, the long debates. Fingolfin and Turgon had handle long meetings and compromising with factions – Fingon wants to give one command, have it followed, and have everyone agree and the hassles end. (I do this big gesture and that’ll patch everything up and end all the problems between us Noldor and there shoudn’t be any resentment left because i know the action that fixes this.)

His closest relative -aside from cousins- was his Aunt Lalwen. She taught him to ride and competed against him, understood his passions and hobbies. When Fingolfin places her as regent in case of his death, as next oldest of the House of Finwë, or to advise Fingon if the High Kingship ever passed down, Fingon rightfully reads it as his father’s declaration that he trusted his sister to lead the Noldor- or at least that her judgement was trusted more than Fingon’s, more confirmation of Fingon’s doubts that his father thought Turgon more responsible and sensible and a better heir, the one Fingolfin wished would rule after him instead of his oldest son. Fingon feels that Aunt Lalwen being appointed even as a councilor position towards him is a betrayal by her, that the bond he thought existed between him and her was a lie. He pushes her away, removes her for all power, sends her from Ethil Sirion and resents. he wants to be free of his father’s shadow and the older generation. He will get things right. Union of Maedhros and this will be the big gesture to prove he’s the hero made out to be in all the propaganda that makes him feel uncomfortably guilty.

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FAVOURITE FICTIONAL CHARACTER: too damn many. But as of this moment I’m remembering just how high up on that list Himura Kenshin is.

  FAVOURITE FAMOUS PERSON: Cripes. I don’t have one, I don’t fan over historical individuals all that much (their works and efforts, tidbits about them, sure, but this always feels like too loaded a question)

  FAVOURITE BOOK: The Silmarillion is one, but hmm…Gilgamesh

FAVOURITE BAND: Florence + the Machine

SONG STUCK IN YOUR HEAD RIGHT NOW: DOWNTOWN by Macklemore (blame the radio), Hello My Old Heart by the Oh Hellos

LAST MOVIE I SAW: … shit Mad Max Fury Road, a few weeks ago. I haven’t watched a full movie in a long while.

LAST SHOW I WATCHED: The Flash (season 2!)

  DREAM JOB:   trust fund baby with lots of time to devote to running personal charities

WHAT IS YOUR FANFIC AUTHOR NAME: heget

IF YOU COULD BE ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW WHERE WOULD IT BE? I would love to visit various places in Europe – Germany, Switzerland, Greece, back to Italy and have time to see Venice. But right now, someplace warm (as in at least 88°F) with lots of trees by the water and no mosquitos

☆ If you have any academic (in whatever sense works in their context) OCs, I’d love to hear about them :3

Oddly enough, I don’t have many characters that are defined by their professions as scholars or work as teachers and instructors. Of Silm characters, Tacholdir the pin boy is the clearest example, being the writing/reader/language tutor for generations of Edain and elves. And thinking about want he’ll do after being resurrected at the start of the Second Age, the concept of him continuing that job, this time teaching Sindarin and Taliska to elves in Valinor or Tol Eressëa really appeals (Tacholdir is one of the few of the ten that I have clear and plot-y ideas about their second life).

Otherwise I have to turn to my original fics.

Urwin from Rose Red is the ex-priest who works as the personal tutor-caretaker-retainer for Tadeo, the third son of an important warrior noble family, because the man that originally took him in and gave him friendship and a reason to care was an illegitimate cousin of the family. Urwin becomes the mentor for the heroine, Rohese, who is betrothed to Tadeo. That setting also has a lot of mentors and village priests/confessors – the village priest that takes in Gislin and raises the boy before moving to the village next to Tadeo’s family castle is another- and as the clergy is the educational system, lots in Urwin’s backstory.

But the funniest academic OC of mine? I have to go back to Earth is Screaming, where the main character is an anti-villain that destroys his city (mother’s ex-city of which his father’s family has vowed to destroy and a cursed sword to make each generation miserable until that happens, if to be technical) but not before accidentally becoming quasi-immortal by triggering an old magic where a person can become the localized guardian spirit/personification of a piece of land by dying and placing some of the soul in the land and any nearby animal. Aka the haunted cat story. It takes him a few decades to reform his body separate from the cat, by which point the female secondary protagonist has also realized she’s not aging. Fifty years later they’re stopping a reconquest of the ruins of their hometown, then wander around the next few centuries finding things to do under sometimes false identities: pretending to be a normal couple, rescuing orphans and entire slave populations of mines, sacking more cities, convincing the other that the sacking of cities and plotting the downfall of kings isn’t a nice thing to do, temporarily halting the war-like advance of a new religion, hiding from more powerful demigods, writing down what really happened through all the history they’ve lived through, propagating the deification of the woman as the goddess/saint that holds back the feline demon, watching very melodramatic plays (ballets, operas, you name it) about their first lives, and commissioning oil paintings of themselves posed as the historic/mythic selves. Two thousand years later, give or take, the haunted cat guy is working as a mysteriously tenured professor at the local college, the one that teaches antiquities and is fluent in more than just the well-known extinct languages (and will go into hour-long bitching rants about other academics’ terrible accents) and knows most of the heroic epics by heart and specialized in the last days of the city of Kassen. Who mutters through working the newfangled slide projector that he can never keep his images in order, screams about misconceptions about the leaders and life back then (and sputters uncontrollably when one of his students agrees that of course the real prince wasn’t romantically involved with the folk heroine because she was a dancer and there was no way he would have been angry enough to plot to destroy the city if he was regularly getting some, even if the trashier operas suggest otherwise. Professor is unsure whether to fluke the brat or praise him). Who brings old documents and copies of them to class, has an old oil painting (one of those ‘tasteful’ nudes of some model posing as Goddess Isha holding the cursed sword) that looks remarkably like the professor’s wife (the graduate students wish they knew her opinion about that painting, very nice lady the professor’s wife, very long-suffering obviously), and on the last day of finals brings this prop-sword which he claims to have bought from the production company the last them they did the opera of the Fall of Kassen (very catchy tunes, toss-up between the villain monologues or the final lamenting aria of the Cassandra-like dancer girl which is the best and most memorable song) and shows it to the class (it’s not the real cursed sword; that was a myth and always this one has dull edges). This is his last gig before the equivalent of the Great War starts. After that the two go to ground one last time.

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2. What’s your favourite elf (can be Noldor or not)?

So many, but if i had to pick one and only one, I go back to the first I fell in love with: Indis. By the Belain, the moment when her oldest son is threatened with death- and her husband -her son’s father and their king- sides with who has threatened to murder their son? Who abandons her, their children and life together, and their people, for this step-son who has threatened to murder his half-brother? That she stays with her children until everything falls apart and only then leaves -still with one of her daughters. That she threw herself whole-heartedly into the role as queen of a people not her own, adopting their speech and custom, and that her two sons grew to be wise and forgiving and strong kings (and their wise manner rightfully attributed to her). That she suffered and was abandoned in the worst way by a husband, but had the loyalty of her children. Such a tiny role on the pages of the Silm, but her character and the goodness shone out to me somehow. I read the ‘Statute of Finwë and Míriel’ carrying not at all about those two, just searching for what little else I could learn about Indis and if the wrongs upon her were redressed.

4. What’s your favourite Valar?

OOooh. Ummm. Oromë? Tulkas and Nessa? Yavanna and Aulë? Nienna? Námo? …probably Námo.

11. Do you agree with the way the Valar dealt with Middle-earth?

Answered. In part because of the hate heaped up on them, I reflectively counter back. It’s hard having half a heart Vanyar and the other Sindar. The Eglath have an honest grievance against the Valar; the Noldor don’t.

12. Doriath or Nargothrond?

As fun as writing the Nargothrond Soap Opera with assorted OCs, Doriath and Menegroth holds my heart. There is a romance and a sadness in my heart that it touches deep down. (Of my least favorite places in Beleriand, it’s not Angband because hey, writing opportunities! but Himring and Himlad)

16. What do you think of Fingolfin going to attack Melkor?

It’s a classic epic scene – in the old-school meaning of the word. And Fingolfin isn’t fool-hardly enough to think himself the combat equal of Melkor – and yet in his last act of defiance, of ensuring he is selling his death as dearly as possibly, he permanently and grievously wounds the Satan figure itself. Plus Fingolfin is reeling under suicidal grief and he just lost the only princes among the Noldor who were willing to listen and agree with his plans and urging to fight Morgoth. (Yes, I have the Blind Guardian album too, and Time Stands Still is a good rock song.)

18. What do you think Eru meant by “And thou, Melkor, shalt see that no theme may be played that hath not its uttermost source in me, nor can any alter the music in my despite. For he that attempteth this shall prove but mine instrument in the devising of things more wonderful, which he himself hath not imagined.”?

My theology is….about what someone raised without it would be ;). But pretty straight forward, Eru is the Creator of Everything. Plus given enough time the common decency of people overcomes the evil. I’m an optimist enough to believe that, and this is a fantasy universe that runs on that principle of the eucatastrophy.

29. If you were an elf in Midlle-earth after the War of Wrath would you sail immediately to Valinor or wait a little more in Middle-earth?

Answered and answered. 🙂

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~~You terrible person you~~

6. Would you have followed Fëanor?

Look, this would mean I’d consider Fëanor having the bare minimum requirements of what I consider a good leader. Especially politically and militarily. Someone who sacrifices advantages for his people based on his personal ambitions and prejudices is a nope. Someone who doesn’t show concern and consideration for his sons’ lives, let alone followers or subjects, is an astoundingly bad leader. Someone who in his megalomania and hubris thinks himself seriously the equal if not superior to Melkor has no judgment. And Someone who is a clear parallel to Melkor (and Lucifer) is no one I want to associate with, let alone trust to lead me successfully anyway.

So again, No chance in Utumno 😉

22. If you could marry one of Fëanor’s sons which one would you choose?

Okay, am I marrying them as to get close enough to assassinate one or several of them? Because that would be my goal, to be honest.

Fu~ If I was forced at sword-point to marry one of the terrible seven, I would pick Amrod. He is the ONLY son of Fëanor to go against the emotional control/blackmail of his father, defy the old man, and try to return to his mother and Aman. Nor does he have the absolute black reputation and deeds of his brothers (Tolkien uses the word evil to describe Curufin- how more explicit can you be?). Still, Amras is a mass murderer who swore that Oath, but at least if we go by the Losgar Incident he dies early, nice short marriage. And if I’m lucky he stays in Mandos and I can remarry someone better.

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11. Do you agree with the way the Valar dealt with Middle-earth?

Overall? Yes.

Did they make mistakes or not do everything exactly how I’d prefer? Sure. But the errors were in permitting free will, as they should, of standing back and letting others make mistakes or go their own way, oft to ruin but not always, or because they work on such a long scale of time unfathomable to mortals (which, remember, the elves are on the time scale of stars and continents too, not the mere decades of men) I don’t harshly begrudge. The sinking of Númenor must be placed at the feet of Ilúvatar. They offered Aman to the elves- did not demand, and if they did not return repeatedly to ask them and the later generations if they wished for Aman and to be Avari no longer, then at least they did not harass. Yes, I would have preferred the War of Wrath earlier, but then i also would have preferred they captured Fëanor before he led everything to disastrous rebellious ruin and murder. My atheist soul is pleased with the idea of divinities more Deist in manner, and it’s not like the Valar weren’t working in subtle and not-so subtle ways to help. The Eagles were the more overt of Manwë’s hands; every kind and fortuitous wind as well. And they are archangels anyway, not omnipotent gods. Compared to divinities and pantheons in other stories, their flaws and errors and personality folibes are minor.

19. Who do you think had the worse destiny: Húrin or Túrin?

Answered. Plus – longer life, more opportunities for more crap.

20. If you could be a character from the book which one would you choose?

Vanyar elf born in the Second Age, nice and safe and comfy and stories to get from the source without having suffered through the adventure itself. Or a hobbit.

(Nobody, to be honest. I want to read my stories, escape into them, but not live them. Cripes on a Pogo Stick, pre-industrial society would need a metric ton of magic to make up for the labor cost and sanitary concerns and tedium and lack of communication.)

29. If you were an elf in Midlle-earth after the War of Wrath would you sail immediately to Valinor or wait a little more in Middle-earth?

Answered. Smooze my way onto a Falmari ship with the promise of staying with my new friends in Alqualondë until i get a place of my own in Tol Eressëa surrounded by those familiar trees of Beleriand.

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5. What’s your favourite man of the First Age?

Beren Camlost. No brainer – guy is a Disney Princess complete with forest animals helping him, has serious PSTD and survivor’s guilt, an epic story we get plenty of details about, was Huan’s best friend (they die side-by-side sharing their last words), Lúthien’s choice of lover, so brave and bold and sarcastic little shit, making a running leap and pulls an elf off a galloping horse holy shit that’s hardcore, successfully steals a Silmaril from Morgoth, and icing on the top he’s a Bëorian from Dorthonion also best friends and allies with the Green Elves and Ents and has a peaceful second-life down in Ossiriand. Beren = better than all your favs.

14. What’s your favourite Maiar?

If Huan doesn’t count, Uinen. She’s the part of the sea I love and know best, the coasts and the teeming life, the estuaries and the warm and life-giving part of the ocean that is kind to men. Plus she actually punishes the mass murdering and thieving Kin-slayers for stealing the most precious craft/art/homes of an entire people over the bodies of said peaceful people. Only Uinen gets anything approaching justice and vengeance on those bastards.

15. Would you trust Ossë?

Ossë? HELL YES. A lot more than I trust Ulmo, to be completely honest. Seriously, Ulmo with his using Tuor as a mouthpiece and picking him out as this pawn, plus the mind-wiping the elves to stop fearing the ocean skeeved me out. Ossë goes through the steps of befriending the elves- both those in Valinor and Beleriand, helps them build ships, gives them regular info. And I like storms, their sound and fury, so I understand Ossë’s glee and purpose. And there needs to be a Shiva. And hurricanes do not frighten me. Foolish perhaps, but I have grown up all my life facing the prospect of them, know how to handle them (aka get away from the storm surge, be on high ground) whereas earthquakes and especially tornadoes – nope. Again, Ossë is the ocean close to shore, not the empty and alien deep waters, the wide blue sea days away from shore or the sunless depths.

And Uinen keeps him in-check and on the right side.

I really want to say 6 for the meme because it’d be hilarious (if that’s the right word) even without your dare, but I’m genuinely curious about 27?

6. Would you have followed Fëanor?

(You’re not the only one that took this dare)

This question feels like asking “would you buy into the fear-mongering of a would-be fascist dictator using a crisis to squeeze power illegally and based on a combination of his own irrational megalomania, paranoia, and ubermensch bullshit while falling into sin/rejecting grace and also motivated by his desire for a handful of objects he jealously guarded anyway, plus empire-building and especially the xenophobia of using unseen and unknown mortal men as scapegoating and (not just fascist) tactic of seizing power with that extremist minority by pointing to some innocent outside group as an enemy.” Oh wait, that’s exactly what that question is. Also, omg, asking if I would place any trust in Fëanor’s judgement and rational planning abilities, especially him at his worst and with my life, let alone anything else, in the balance?

AHAHA, Fuck No. 🙂

27. What do you think it was the most evil deed of Melkor?

Orcs.

And while Adanel’s Tale is not considered true, even if it was still included in canon, that men were once immortal, then just how Morgoth tainted the natural end of mortality with a fear and hatred of death that was not supposed to be there, which causes so much misery and problems (and saddles us with the Atlantis parable).

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7. Glaurung or Ancalagon?

Glaurung is a sadistic horribly-smelling shit that killed my blonde elf bros. Ancalagon at least had the awesome factor (as in including bowel-moving awe and terror) and appears on-screen to highlight how much a bad-ass Eärendil is.

10. Which King of Númenor is your favourite?

Elros Tar-Minyatar. (Okay, it’s the cheap answer, and Vardamir sounds cool too, especially the abdicate for someone interested in governance to rule. But meh, Atlantis~)

19. Who do you think had the worse destiny: Húrin or Túrin?

Húrin- has not only his personal life misery but was forced to watch vicariously through all his son’s horrible destiny, helpless to give aid or comfort or warning.

29. If you were an elf in Midlle-earth after the War of Wrath would you sail immediately to Valinor or wait a little more in Middle-earth?

Okay, let’s talk about how if I had my pick of kindred, my first pick would be Vanyar, because that’s the best king plus a life of peace and quiet and blessed safety and creativity and art and joy – but my second pick, in a very close run-off here, would be the Iathrim of Doriath because Thingol and Melian are second best pick and ♥ Menegroth ♥ (though my weird form of sea-longing means I might be hanging out with Círdan – I can’t choose between sea and trees – Maybe I’m a Falmari?) Whatever, either I only came over with the Army of the Valar so I’m heading back home. Or as a Sinda, while missing my homeland, it’s gone, and while nostalgia and my timid homebody nature might slow my steps, I want the offer of peace and the guarantee of reuniting with my lost kin and king and queen. So many awesome people being reembodied or living in Aman (and a guarantee that the Kin-slayers won’t be) so I want that. I’ll miss the Edain though. But that’s why there’s cruise trip visits to Númenor.