The tendons in my hand ache (and I keep reminding myself not to chew on my fingernails as I focus) – but the line-art for the first character is finished. And man does it help to double the size of the scanned image. Now either to add some flat colors (and thus tweak the color layer masks of the line-art to match. All that blue tone is placeholder) or ink the rest of the figures on this page.
Tag: wip
fall, bake, leaf
Pieces of brown hair framed her face, and as she turned her head to look at the shattered pots and flowers he had crushed in his fall, he could see the caul of silver mesh studded with seed pearls capping her hair and one long plait braided down her back.
Sure, the craftsman’s prattle was continuous and full of information that Elwê could not decipher, and it made no difference to him where the other had found the clay he was molding or how thin to make the coils or just what wood shavings were best to line the fire pit to bake the vessels.
Not that they were dark and leafless, but the very shape was subtly wrong, until one saw that the branches were roots, and it was as if the trees had been flipped, trunks going into the black earth of death’s gate and the tapering forking roots reached out into the colorless gray sky and shadow moon.
Faelindis thoughts – for the everything is happy at the start of the Second Age
…
When Faelindis visits her friends on the mainland, she bypasses Tirion upon Túna for their country villas in the north and west. Tirion is intimidatingly grand, and while not as empty as it once was, there is a ghost that lingers to its white streets, an echo to its fountains. Of Nargothrond it shares no similarity of design; she is not like the survivors of Gondolin who cannot look upon the hill of Túna without weeping. But long shadows across the walls flicker to the shape of the great wyrm if she stands in the city boulevards, and the cacophony of voices becomes the roar of something else. Tol Eressëa is open and quiet and green.
…
Dowager High Queen Indis divided her presence between her children, her eldest who lived in Valmar and the youngest who ruled in Tirion, respected and beloved by both cities, and there was usually a flurry of activity during her visits. Some of the excitement was for her companion, Lady Nerdanel, who unveiled her newest creations during these galas. Some events were intimate and causal, garden parties or book readings, the type of parties that Faelindis would enjoy. Faelindis’s new friends were trying to convince her attend one. Amanë assured Faelindis that the younger woman would not feel unwelcome or uncomfortable. And unlike Faelineth, Aglar’s wife and thus Amanë’s new sister-in-law, Faelindis had been a lady-in-waiting to Princess Finduilas and thus had long practice with the high nobility and their parties. “She is the most gracious of women,” Amanë said, “kind and gentle and a most attentive and sympathetic listener. Like Nienna there is a grief to her that has only enhanced her wisdom and beauty.” Faelineth concurred, recounting again how all her nervousness had melted away when the queen discussed with her the healing arts, comparing stories of working beside Estë. A quiet luncheon at one of the gardens did sound pleasant, and from their stories, Faelindis imagined the high queen as a combination of Finduilas and Amanë’s regal yet approachable mother.
Faelindis’s unease with meeting the dowager high queen was due to a private minor embarrassment solely to do with the queen’s name. After some many years of hearing Faelivrin, every time Faron stressed the end of her true name gave her a giddy thrill.
Those Wisp’lights Aren’t to be Trusted
Started writing the sequel to this.
He has found his parents. If he keeps repeating this, reminding himself that the time to fear is over, to calm his racing heart, wipe away this sweat that makes him shiver and cold, it will stop. Mother has knelt in the forest floor, knees crinkling and crushing the decaying leaves, and has opened her arms wide. She calls for him to run into her arms so she may devour him into a hug, her mouth split into a wide smile, the white of her teeth shining like a wisp-light in the darkness. Father leans beside her, neck bent oddly but his face smiling with relieved delight, eyes almost hidden by the creases in his face from the sharp grin. The boy wonders what has happened to his father’s bow, for his hands are empty. Neither parent is carrying their travel packs, and the boy wonders if they lost all the family supplies, if that is but one minor calamity to have happened when they became separated. He has never been separated from his parents, never for this long, and some disaster must have struck to have kept them apart for so long. The boy asks what had gone wrong, how they had become separated from another, why his parents had not heard him calling for them. He had been calling for a long time. Scrambling down an outcropping of rocks, hands skidding on the stone, scrapping away a layer of skin, the boy ignores the pain that blossoms in his palms to reach the lower incline where his parents wait for him. Pressing his injured hands to his side and ignoring the blood, the boy feels the sharper sting of irrational anger. He had called and searched and had panicked for so long because his parents had disappeared. That should not have happened, but it is now over, and his parents are here. And yet his heart is racing like a hare in one of his father’s clever snares. “Where were you?” he shouts again.
His mother does not answer the question, nor any flicker in her eyes show that she acknowledged it. “Come to me,” she calls, her voice low and sweet.
His mother never croons. She has a pretty singing voice, but when she speaks it is always loud and harsh like a jay, and Grandmother bemoaned that her middle child was fortunate to have found a spouse that could handle her thorny temperament. Father is like that, calm and soothing, but he is too quiet, has said nothing.
“Come here,” Mother pleads, as soft as there would be tears in her eyes. But there is none.
Her eyes…there is nothing.
“Come here,” the voice commands. This time the underlying sternness spoils the sweetness. The fingers of her outstretched hands twitch and curl inward like spider jaws. The boy does not run to her, pauses and shifts his weight back, presses against the rocks behind him.
Something is wrong.
“Hurry to us,” his father says. “It is no longer safe here in the woods. We will take you to a safe place.” This is his father’s voice, and his father’s face, handsome and pale, his black hair grown long to swing around his ears but still recognizably him. And his father is wise, rightly praised by the rest of the Forsaken as clever and cautious. The boy was instructed by all his family that he should never doubt his father’s wisdom, that his sight was keener and clearer that his mother. The boy knew his grandparents believed his mother to be too reckless, but staying in one spot close to the shore would not find them Great-uncle Elu the missing king. But the boy wishes his grandparents were here, or uncles, even the long missing one. Because something is wrong. And his father has not called him as he normally does, has not said my son. My son, my son, said with such love, such joyous pride, as if there is no other name worthy of the boy, no other words that could contain such deep emotion.
“Come here,” his mother says.
The boy does not wish to disobey, wants nothing more than to run into his parents’ arms, feel the embrace of reunion squeeze away this panic in his chest, but his bloody hands stick to the rock at his back.
Something is very wrong.
Urwin Beginning Draft
Back when I wrote this, here’s the rest of what I had written. It was the start to a NaNoWriMo, so maybe we’ll just blame that November is approaching. (’Course, by the time the month gets here, I’ll have burned out this compulsion to write snatches for Rose Red and gone back to finishing Silm fic, maybe). So this is maybe the first half/third to what would be the first chapter. Again having almost one of the names for fantasy alternative papacy and political and clerical structures is a hassle (this time I’m not writing around formal names for the same reason I normally do). But does give a better grounding to what the hell any of this is.
“Where is the lord of this
place?” Urwin asked, unwilling to mask the irritation in his voice and the
impatience he felt.
The castle was in the old style, a
tall wall of stacked stone atop a bit of raised earthwork not quite enough to
be labeled a hill. This inner wall encircled a collection of buildings that
Urwin could reasonably estimate would together be no larger than the plaza in
front of a minor temple back in the capital. From what Urwin could see peaking
above the simple fortifications, the buildings looked to be constructed mostly
of wood, the roofs of which were fresh unpainted shingles. A carved bird of
some sort capped the main roofline, the blue and green and red of its painted
wings and long tail providing a splash of unexpected color. Urwin wondered if
the piece had once adorned another building somewhere else, brought to give
this refurbished outpost a hint of style. The village surrounding the castle was
on the small side as well, with at least half the buildings of new
construction. They were long wooden houses with high pointed roofs same as the
castle, the style which still looked peculiar to the young man raised in the
holy capital of Staffansgrave. The wall that surrounded the village was thicker
than the castle wall but not any higher, an earthen bulwark with wooden stakes
bristling like a hedgehog riddled with bald patches. The patchiness spoke of
how unconcerned the inhabitants were at the possibility of anyone reaching
their valley with a hostile army. Formality was observed, but the village gate
was only a deterrent to bears and other wild animals, and Urwin had yet to see
anyone armed or who would qualify as a guard. He could not think of a reason
someone would attack this valley, for there was no important route and the land
while fertile was not large enough to tempt an army. Urwin was not sure why the
castle and its village had been so recently rebuilt and what had attracted a
lord of the House of the Antlered Crow to move to this remote location and a
handful of families follow him.
The villager Urwin interviewed
admitted that there were only twelve or so families in the village, seven of
which were native to this valley, though two had been trappers and
wood-collectors up in the slopes of the mountains, and all so intermarried
through cousins and generations that it would be more accurate to call them one
large clan. Most worked now in the castle, which held both a manor house and
the round temple complex where a priestess and attendants lived. There was a
section of the village cleared for the eventual construction of a proper
temple, and Urwin could see the white rope tied to a large circle of sticks in
the ground that showed where the central apse of the temple would be. The lord
was a member of the House of Teotuila, an actual blood relative of the clan and
not just a retainer, which Urwin found surprising and suspicious. Another red
banner with the antlered crow in black hung next to the gate leading into the
castle. A loose milch cow was eyeing it speculatively.
“Lord Tovias?”
The old farmer, who may or may not
have been the owner of the cow but at least knew whom that cow belonged to and
if nothing else had an obligation to stop that disobedient bovine from
devouring the official symbol of the lord who governed and protected the farmer
and any livestock he owned, scratched at the wisps of white hair on his chin.
Urwin twitched. He could see the cow sniffing at that flag, an insolent long
pink tongue. The young priest had little experience with animals, but he
doubted something as expensive as a healthy-looking cow would be allowed to
wander free and threaten the integrity of banners. He counted it a small
blessing that the gate into the castle complex was closed. Otherwise Urwin
imagined all manner of barnyard creatures would be free to roam inside its halls
and into the chapels, grazing at their leisure.
“Is Lord Tovias the name of
the noble of House of the Antlered Crow who owns this valley?” Urwin
asked, measuring his words to sound calmer than he felt. Just because this old
man was not the seneschal Urwin wished to speak to was not leeway to offer him
discourtesy. A priest was humble and even in his treatment to all Imperial
citizens and believers of the faith, another commandment found in every holy
text.
“That he is,” said the
old man. “Young fellow. Very pleasant. Arrived here with the priestess. Pale
foreigners, can’t miss ‘em.”
A remnant of the younger, less
dutiful boy Urwin had been wanted to laugh at the last comment, for compared to
the cosmopolitan people in the center of the Holy Empire, the half-heretical yokels
of the rim regions like this dismal little valley were pale and strange and too
close to the taint.
“The priestess?”
The old man’s face brightened into
an enthusiastic smile. “O’yes, a very comely young lady. One of the
sancter-priests and not just here for singing the Star-days chants and blessing
the babies and weddings. Used to have an old man for that, but then he died
last year and we had to walk to the next valley over for that. Frightful worry
that was, to not have a priest on hand for rites. Did our best to recite the
words, but you know how that holds. Wild taint was starting to creep into the
fields, and there was talk about moving away if we didn’t get a holy one. Then
the good sires send us the m’Lord Tovias himself and that young priestess, and
she a shining one.”
The reply confirmed four things
for Urwin. The first was how powerful the taint was, the memory of malice from
unspoken ones that hated creation and sought to corrupt it, how left untended
the taint crept from the wilds. In civilized regions one could forget how
powerful the taint was, or how virulent to could be.
The second was that the villagers,
as was expected of the northern hinder-region, were followers of Saer’s school
of thought that an individual was responsible for the daily purification of the
forest-taint, which aside from the patently false belief that any individual
was capable of expelling the taint had a dangerous opening into unorthodoxy.
Such attitudes could skirt into heresy by opposing the authority of trained and
appointed priests. In remote regions, where any priest was difficult to find
and the wandering circuits for the incantation-priests covered large areas that
made administration of necessary rituals a possibly only once or twice a year,
this was to be expected. Distasteful, certainly, but sadly while any large and
long-settled city might have hundreds of priests to apply the daily blessings
and the trained sancter-priests and priestesses who could banish the shadow of
taint and unsacred malice from the world with holy word and song, they were
hard to find in the places where they were needed most. But to lack even the
lay-priest for the tending of simple needs was unacceptable. Urwin mentally
recited the first catechism, that the light of the Life-brighter saw all even
when Her manifest as the Sun-in-Glory did not illuminate, that all shadow was
illusion, that this glaring absence had been seen and corrected. The clerical bureaucracy
was slow and riddled with human corruption, as Waleran’s nephew well knew, but
could reach out from the highest of priestly cities to this miserable remote rural
spot. A priestess had been sent before the irreversible occurred. It was not
Urwin’s duty to fix. Anyway, doctrinal errors in the attitudes of peasants were
to be tolerated, especially as long as it was Saeric philosophy or the
Horse-rider Branch who, while those denominations structured the administration
of their temples and monasteries oddly and emphasized different portions and
interpretations of the holy texts, at least gave some nominal deference to the
principal temple in the capital. Theological conclaves cropped up every few
years where the differences were debated, and Urwin dimly remembered his uncles
and their various allies and confederates among the upper-priests complaining
of how the fiefdoms in the Yewwood, Horse-river, and Northfall, as well as the
free charter cities, rarely paid the necessary tithes and refused to accept the
primacy of their authority in Staffansgrave as the voice of the Sun-in-Glory
among the people. Urwin recalled his uncle’s favorite saying, that the
authority of the great temples came as the hand’s shadow behind that of the
Emperor; to swing one was to swing the other, and where Imperial power, or at
least its roads, did not go, then neither could its priests. True heresy, to
deny the authority of the Vessel in the Mirror Realm, or the Pure Ones revolt,
was to be guarded against. But one could ignore the harmless practices of peasants
trying to survive with the daily threat of the forest-taint.
Third confirmation was that the
priestess had been responsible for the touch Urwin had felt over the valley and
upon the barrier-stones. Not every priest could imbue their chants or songs
with the power to wash away the malice of the unspoken ones, though
incantation-priests were taught from childhood the rituals and could imbue at
least some will and intent to stall the growth of taint until it could be
banished. One could not complete even the most rudimentary seminars of a
lay-priest without accomplishing that feat. Yet to feel the touch of a single
priestess’s efforts from a ritual that was likely weeks if not months past all
the way to the edge of the valley spoke of an uncommonly strong talent, one
that was rarely sent to an isolated and unimportant little fief.
Last, the envy Urwin felt for a
fully-recognized sancter-priest had not disappeared. This realization was most
galling. He needed personal reflection to determine if his envy or his arrogance
in thinking he had overcome that flaw was more unbecoming. Mentally he listed
the verses for righteous attitude and the admonitions for envy, a topic of
lectures he was rarely personally subjected to as a child, but given much
attention to in Otker’s third volume. The instructor of Urwin’s last seminar
had been fond of Otker’s fifth volume, as the material was most useful to a
captain-general. Still, the old desire lingered, adding more resentment on a
tiring load. The family had many nephews to place in key positions in the
church hierarchy, and Urwin’s uncles had decided before he reached puberty that
this particular nephew was best served by grooming his talents to eventually
take over one of the martial orders. He had the promise to become a saucter-priest,
the innate skill to load his chants with the power to remove that musty cold
feeling that spoke of in-creeping taint. But even a strong gift for
purification was not rare enough to shift his intended fate, so Senior Guardian
Waleran’s nephew was given the full instruction for all incantation-priests to
receive their beads and nothing more.
His instructors praised him as brilliant,
and not because they had to. Stuffed with all the pride of a preteen boy, Urwin
accepted that praise as due course, and he had enjoyed the drills, the lessons
on swordsmanship and archery, the body conditioning and running. Well, the
running and winning the practice bouts, that he was not one of the trainees
with perpetually sprained wrists and smacked fingers, how easy the answers had
come to him when quizzed over old battles, that he had excelled. He would have
excelled as a captain-general of the clergy, but also if he had been allowed to
further his talents with spiritual purification.
“…but they all said I was pretty.”
Tiny snippet from Squidboy in Angband (Taking suggestions for a real fic title. Also, to include quotes from ADoD in the final draft or note?)
“She was beautiful, wasn’t she? The princess,” Faelindis said, and Faron feared her wistfulness had damned them until he realized anyone overhearing them would think her sadness was for Princess Lúthien and not Finduilas.
“Yes,” answered Faron, for he had seen the Fairest of Elvenkind once during her captivity in Nargothrond. Lord Celegorm had been escorting Princess Lúthien through one of the lower hallways of Nargothrond, flanked by his personal guards. Faron remembered her as a patch of beauty glimpsed between bars of walking steel and leather, cold and angry and still more lovely than anyone he knew before or since, a feeling that if the entirety of her form was seen unhindered that her fury would flood the great cavern hall of Nargothrond like an exploding star. He watched as the princess was dragged like a statute to rooms more easily guarded, the tight grip of Lord Celegorm’s fingers on her bare arm as he boasted of how soon he would wed her, the angry red marring pale flesh. Faelindis carried similar bruises on her arms from the touch of the overseer with the ruby earring, a reminder that the attention of the orcs Faron could not shield her from.
Lúthien had escaped, and even for a brief moment had brought Angband itself down low.
Faelindis could not escape.
“I was not as beautiful,” Faelindis whispered, rubbing at the welts on her arms. “Or strong. Everyone called her beautiful, though. Even the mortal admired how strong and beautiful she was.”
“Aye,” Faron whispered back. He had never met Beren, on patrol when the mortal arrived and everything overturned, and he had been enslaved in Angband since the Fifth Battle, never meeting the Mormegil, the doomed mortal Túrin who Finduilas loved as she had once loved Lord Gwindor. Faelindis had met both.
WIP – Squidboy in Angband #3
Ugh, so between Ancient Roman mines in Wales and general experience with kennels, plus trying to write at least a light bit of horror, I have a very rough draft of the next (third) part of Squidboy in Angband – what I call the general setting and average day info-dump part.
Except it’s all a collection of standalone paragraphs or string of three or four paragraphs, so I need to figure out which order flows best and where it needs a bridge of prose.
And of course nothing inspires me to write more than remembering what a travesty Game of Thrones plans to make of this arc for this season (Oh, I’ll be watching the episode in a few hours. I’ll be grumpy about it, though)
So if anyone wants to read this over and suggest another order, or where it needs more. Or what warning tags I’d need to include. What parts don’t make sense. Or other suggestions. I’d really appreciate any feedback.
The orc overseer with the ruby earring culled Faron from a pen of elven thralls, choosing him to tend the wargs after the beasts devoured the last slave who had watched over them. At least that was what the orc told Faron, laughing about the double meaning to feed wargs and shoving the thrall into the pit where the wolf-like creatures were penned.
The warg kennel was as large as a dancing hall, fenced in with iron grating and recessed down from the main level as to be slightly deeper than hip-height. Each time he climbed in or out from the tender’s sidegate was awkward and slow. A thin channel along the wall filled with water pumped up from below, which Faron learned never to approach after one of the wargs nearly crushed his left arm, nor was it safe to be too close to the feed trough. His duties were simple, to ensure each beast was on their feed and to alert the overseer if one did not eat or if fell injured or ill, to clean away their filth as best he could, separate the quarrelsome ones before any serious fight broke out, and collar and leash them so their handlers, small orcs covered in familiar tooth scars, could ride them out on patrols. There was no set schedule to the warg patrols that Faron could discern, but when the riders came, the beasts would set to howling and scrambling against the walls of their pen, even awkwardly climb the iron fence that separated them from the rest of the cavern. All of Angband would echo with the wargs’ excited high-pitched screams.
Attending well to his tasks gave not what he would label pride, for a slave of Angband had no such luxury or retention of dignity, but there was some satisfaction in knowing that as long as the beasts were healthy, the overseer was less interested in teaching Faron a lesson in what pain an immortal body could endure. Faron could not prevent all cruel beatings, and his missing fingers and toes reminded him if he forgot.
Osp was the name the overseer gave him, though there was another name in the guttural snarls of the orcs’ rudimentary personalized language that meant the same and which Faron learned to also scrape and bow to. Renamed could be a blessing and curse, for that meant being singled out, being remembered by the whips of Angband. But the unnamed, the captured slaves that stayed in the holding pens, they disappeared soon. Faron only had dark guesses of their fates. So the reeking one that tended the warg pens he would be, for in its own way it was safer than the mines.
…
While the tunnels of the mines themselves were rough stone, scoured by fire and crude pickaxes, the main galleries of each subterranean level of Angband was dressed stone of neat, glassy-smooth bricks, or at least the cavern walls were carved to appear so. There was no mortar, and the lines were perfectly straight and so snug that a fingernail could not fit between. Not all angles were clinically straight, as Faron noticed that if he looked up, the walls bowed outward to the high and smooth ceiling. The effect was disorienting and fed into the feeling that he was but a scurrying insect. Another gallery a level up had walls that sloped inward.
The cells to hold important prisoners, those
Morgoth liked to use as bait
for their connections to the leaders and kings among the Noldor princes, were kept in the gallery with inward sloping walls, in tiny cells too narrow for a body to lie down, each door along a featureless row with but two vents for air, one at the bottom of the door and one too high for a hand to reach up and touch. There were only a few of these doors, and the coffin-like cells were for the most part empty.
…
The mines of Angband, for the most part, lacked the sound of voices, only the ring of rock and panting of the ore bearers carrying the material out of the tunnels to be refined. Easily one could feel the weight of Morgoth’s overpowering essence in the back of the skull, a heavy supernatural pressure that muted tongues.
Angband’s original purpose had been as an advanced watch-post and armory for Utumno before re-purposed as the Dark Lord’s seat of power. The mines remained the most important of its secondary purposes, for the army of Morgoth was made of thousands of orcs, and each needed armor and several weapons all of black wrought iron. It was not orcs that dug the majority of that iron or who smelted the ore in all of Angband’s uncountable furnaces.
Sometimes fire-setting was used to crack the rocks, when the overseers grew impatient with the progress. The fiery whips of the Balrogs lashed against stone instead of flesh, but the fumes were unpleasantly dangerous in the narrow tunnels of the prison. Water would be brought in to douse the splintered rock face so the enslaved miners could continue to work, and this is when the slaves would dip their rags and crude containers into the heavy vats of water, thirsty and overheated and desperate.
The closest thing to trees that anyone in Angband saw were the logs stolen from the forests of Taur-nu-Fuin brought in for charcoal for the furnaces that roasted the iron ore for the slag and wrought iron that army of the Iron Prison depended on. Those with the light of the Two Trees in their eyes were forced to work the bellows of the furnaces, judged as the prisoners most likely to have knowledge of metallurgy from Aulë. The rest were sent to dig out the iron ore, to turn the giant tread-wheels that pumped out the groundwater of the lowest levels, or to any other task in the vast dark fortress that benefited the armies of Morgoth. The ones that oversaw the partition and management of Angband’s elven slaves were corrupted Maiar and a few high-ranking and trusted orcs. The fortress levels that held the living and training quarters for the orcs was mostly separate from the mines in which the slaves toiled, though some orc companies were in charge of the iron furnaces, and there was a fresh rotation of orcs as guards and torturers. Some stayed in permanent positions, those that barked the orders for shift changes and oversaw the pens that held new captives. The overseers lingered outside the torturers’ rooms, waiting to gather their charges after any information was wrung out of the new arrivals with heated irons and sharp knives, and tutted and complained if the prisoners died in questioning before being put to work.
It was whispered with cold acceptance that if an elven prisoner died in the cells it did not matter, for the power of the Black Foe, which one could feel had sunk into the very grains of the earth and each mote of air that comprised Angband, would trap and gather the soul to be recycled back into another of Morgoth’s dark projects.
Mortals taken to Angband rarely survived the first phase, and few were sent to work the mines. The elven prisoners were envious of the humans’ easy deaths.
Faron lost his first finger to the thin knives of the torturers, along with strips of skin from his chest and back and thighs. He was questioned repeatedly about Nargothrond, its exact location and defenses, though still disoriented from the battle and then crazed from the pain, his replies had been garbled and near useless. Gwindor, chained nearby until the orcs took him away to a more secured cell for prisoners deemed important, assured Faron that he had not betrayed the Hidden City. Faron remembered the dull red of heated irons, the feel of the flaying knives, the stench of rotting flesh and the burning pain of her throat from screaming, but the memories were erratic shards and mercifully short.
When they tired of torment, the torturers handed over their prisoners, Faron among them, to the holding pens. Gwindor was held elsewhere, and no one else of their company from Nargothrond had survived the Nirnaeth Arnoediad. It would be twenty-three years until he heard his name spoken again by someone who recognized him from the life before Angband.
…
Rations were scant, comprised chiefly of the white earthy flesh of some mushroom that grew in the depleted tunnels. Though unappetizing, the meal could be trusted whereas the thin meat stew could not. One of the slaves had planted some of the white cave root that the dwarves called earth-bread and shared pieces of it with everyone in the work-gangs. It was hard to chew and astringent without boiling. The orcs allotted each slave a glass of the same dark brew which they drank. The foul drink cleaned wounds, even seemed to speed the healing process, though it did nothing for scarring. Healthier to dress wounds than trying to drink it, at least, was the consensus of the slaves.
…
All the while, the feeling of Morgoth’s attention and power pierced each slave’s mind, like bone shards from a debilitating blow to the back of the head digging into soft tissue.
…
Arms full of offal and meat for the wargs’ daily meal, Faron would pass by the work crews coming up from the mines at the end of their shifts. They would be covered in black dust, their hands raw, and their eyes mostly a mix of pity or envy, depending on if they were close enough to smell the stench from the wargs. One of the miners had eyes that were unsettlingly vacant, and the overseer noticed it. The orc laughed at the blank opacity of that elven thrall’s face. “That one is soon ready for transfer,” it jested. Faron tired not to dissect the meaning.
Still wrestling with the next part of the Faron and Faelindis in Angband story (in the middle of the ever-expanding section I like to call ‘the endless regretting about Throbb feelings’ bit).
Alas, when I either don’t have much of a plot, or not the compound levels of emotional investment, I’m a much faster author. But the way this has been stalling, it pushes that much closer to throwing up my hands and writing the much-needed next part of the Ingwë of Cuiviénen chapter, hang-ups and uncertainties over writing the momentous Oromë interactions be damned…
But if nothing else, trying not to overload on pre-Angband flashbacks, also trying to decide what the appropriate level of ‘nasty’ behavior for my prisoners in Angband (my meter-stick, ironically enough, is ‘any GRRM chapter, especially with Ramsay – make sure only half as terrible’. The relative lack of sexual violence, for one thing. Then again i remember theories of what Qyburn is up to and realize that’s a good guide for Morgoth’s orc stuff *shudder*)
Preview (find the nod to the Jeyne Poole quote):
“Angband was the cruel fossilization of soul, entombing a body in the miserable complete darkness of its iron mines, slowly eating away flesh and bone, and filling the cavity with a broken slinking creature that cowered in desperation. “
“She was beautiful, wasn’t she? The princess,” Faelindis said, and Faron feared her wistfulness had damned them until he realized anyone overhearing them would think her sadness was for Princess Lúthien and not Finduilas.
“Yes,” answered Faron, for he had seen the Fairest of Elvenkind once during her captivity in Nargothrond. Lord Celegorm had been escorting Princess Lúthien through one of the lower hallways of Nargothrond, flanked by his personal guards. Faron remembered her as a patch of beauty glimpsed between bars of walking steel and leather, cold and angry and still more lovely than anyone he knew before or since, a feeling that if her form was seen unhindered in her entirety that her fury would flood the great cavern hall of Nargothrond like an exploding star. He watched as the princess was dragged like a statute to rooms more easily guarded, the tight grip of Lord Celegorm’s fingers on her bare arm as he boasted of how soon he would wed her, the angry red marring pale flesh. Faelindis carried similar bruises on her arms from the touch of the overseer with the ruby earring, from the attention of the orcs Faron could not shield her from.
Lúthien had escaped, and even for a brief moment had brought Angband itself down low.
Faelindis could not escape.
“I was not as beautiful,” Faelindis whispered, rubbing at the welts on her arms. “Or strong. Everyone called her beautiful, though. Even the mortal admired how strong and beautiful she was.”
“Aye,” Faron whispered back. He had never met Beren, on patrol when the mortal arrived and everything overturned, and he had been enslaved in Angband since the Fifth Battle, never meeting the Mormegil, the doomed mortal Túrin who Finduilas loved as she had once loved Lord Gwindor. Faelindis had met both.
News of Menegroth’s fall came via the boasts of the King of Angband to his captains, both Balrogs and orcs. “My enemies do my work for me,” he was said to have crowed, his laughter echoing to the lightning-scarred rafters of his throne room. The orcs toasted to the Kinslayers’ names, laughing and praising them, and their mocking joy drove Faron to the far corner of the warg kennels to puke the dredges of his stomach.
as a bit of a thank you, here’s the WIP of a certain fic’s cast list
◘ Dramatis Personae ◘
Faron Mithglass – Our Narrator, a Sinda Elf of Tol Eressëa, formerly of Angband, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Brithombar (one former location of which he does not recall with fondness), married to Faelindis, totally not Theon Greyjoy
Lord Orodreth Finarfinion – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, formerly the last King of Nargothrond, formerly Lord of Minas Tirith, son of Arafinwë High King of the Noldor and Eärwen of Alqualondë, father of Princess Finduilas, mountaineering aficionado
Princess Finduilas Faelivrin – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, daughter of Lord Orodreth, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Minas Tirith, once held unrequited romantic feelings for one Túrin Agarwaen Mormegil Adanedhel Turambar, once betrothed to Gwindor of Nargothrond (no longer any romantic feelings), completely separate literary character from Sansa Stark
Gwindor Guilinion – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond (with an extended involuntary stay in Angband), former betrothed to Finduilas Faelivrin, former friend and companion to Túrin Turambar and the death that entails, no fan of ill-conceived schemes
Faelindis – a Sinda Elf of Tol Eressëa, formerly of Angband, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Minas Tirith, daughter of the seneschal, Rimdir, of Minas Tirith and former lady-in-waiting to Finduilas Faelivrin (whom she was mistaken for in Angband – long story), married to Faron, totally not Jeyne Poole
Heledir – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Tirion, former chief captain of the army of Nargothrond, unofficial leader of the “Band of the Red Hand” (the name chosen by reembodied elves who volunteered with Finrod to assist Beren’s quest and died in the dungeon of Tol-in-Gaurhoth for their brotherhood, named in honor of Beren’s sigil), enthusiastic proponent of a camping trip, totally stolen from The Leithian Script
Edrahil Enedrion – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, formerly the steward of Nargothrond under King Finrod Felagund, unofficial co-leader of the “Band of the Red Hand”, son of Enedir Urundilion, direct descendant of Mahtan, less enthusiastic to camping trips, totally not “Trebuchet” Tully but yes another cameo from The Leithian Script
Alcar ‘Aglar’ Sarnë – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Taras Hesin, firstborn son of Herenvarno and Vénea, fond of the Quenya phrase ‘Hrívë úva vena’, married to Faelineth and father of twin boys, brother of Amanë, Árë, Mornaew, and Veron, cousin of Failossion, Edrahil, and Carnambos, member of the “Band of the Red Hand” and the werewolf death that entails, totally not Robb Stark
Mornaiwë ‘Mornaew’ Sarnë – a Noldo Elf of Tol Eressëa, formerly of Dorthonion, formerly of Taras Hesin, second son of Herenvarno and Vénea, brother of Aglar, Amanë, Árë, and Veron, sometimes answers to “Craban”, tender of trees and overwhelming foresight, totally not Bran Stark
Ethirdor – a Sinda Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Nan-Tathren, former ranger of Nargothrond, member of the “Band of the Red Hand” and the werewolf death that entails, totally stolen from The Leithian Script
Tancildo ‘Tacholdir’ – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Tirion where he worked in his family’s pin-making shop, member of the “Band of the Red Hand” and the werewolf death that entails, wants some respect
Enyalevanyo? ‘Bân/Bain’ – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Southern Aman, high-ranking soldier of Nargothrond, member of the “Band of the Red Hand” and the werewolf death that entails, boyfriend of Aereth, heterosexual life-mates with Fain, totally not Zack Fair
Fána ‘Fân/Fain’ Costawë – a Vanya Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Valmar, foot-soldier of Nargothrond and member of the “Band of the Red Hand” with the death by werewolf that entails, runs a messenger service for the rural region outside of Valmar from his girlfriend’s inn, heterosexual life-partner with Bain, sometimes answers to “Lumbo”, totally not Cloud Strife
Consael Annûnfalas – a Sinda Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Himlad, brother of Faelineth and brother-in-law of Aglar, member of the “Band of the Red Hand” and the death by werewolf that entails, totally not Raynald Westerling
Faelineth Annûnfalas – a Sinda Elf of Valinor, formerly of Nargothrond, formerly of Himlad, brother of Consael and wife of Aglar, mother of twin boys, trained healer, totally not Jeyne Westerling
Lord Finrod Felagund Finarfinwion – a Noldo Elf of Valinor, formerly King of Nargothrond, son of Arafinwë High King of the Noldor and Eärwen of Alqualondë, husband of Amarië, surprisingly not appearing in this story
Carnambos – a Noldo Elf, raised as Vanyar by his two mothers of which one is a Vanya and devotee of Manwë and the other the younger sister of Vénea, cousin of Aglar and Mornaew, veteran of the War of Wrath and former lieutenant of an advanced mountainous scouting platoon, honorary uncle of the first queen of Númenor, lives at Sornion, a mansion in the Pelóri, with a vulture Maia, totally not Robert Arryn or Lieutenant Blouse
Lissë – a Noldo Elf, granddaughter of Mahtan, sister of Vénea and Enedir, lives in a remote mansion, Sornion, in the Pelóri Mountains with her wife and adopted son, totally not Lysa Tully
Añoloico? – a Maia of Manwë, spent his internship with Mandos, has a long partnership with Carnambos, a very large vulture
Some mules – also less enthusiastic towards camping trips
Still my favorite part of the draft for the next sections of this fic:
“I forgot what it looks like,” Faron admitted. “I remember the caves of Nargothrond. Doors that opened, there were images carved on them. I cannot tell you of what they were. I remember there was music, but I cannot tell you any of the songs. I remember the trees, that their colors changed in the seasons, but not the feel of leaves. There was the sea, where I was born, before Nargothrond. It used to be important to me. I cannot tell you any of its features. I forgot the sea in Nargothrond, long before here, and now I cannot remember any of its colors or what sounds it truly made.”
“Your eyes,” Faelindis whispered. “They have the sea in them. Everyone said so, and they’re true. They are dark and green.” She placed both small hands on his sharp cheekbones and lifted his face until their eyes met, trapping him in her intensity. “Please don’t look away from me,” she whispered, and Faron stared at the bright red of the cut on her bottom lip, the bright white of her teeth. “That is the color, the only green I have, to remind me,” she said as she tilted his face back up. “Please.”
Faron wanted to be angry at her. It helped him not, for he could not see his own face. Her eyes were only brown, her hair the color of slag rock, her skin a greyish pale, every color of the girl faded and ghostlike or dark as Angband’s mines. The only brightness was her red blood where it burst from the paper thinness of her skin, and he needed no reminder of blood’s color or taste. She smelt of blood, of iron and copper.
In the thin vise of her fingers he watched as she searched his face for some memory of the outside world. She held him as if he was a source of comfort for her, as if she drank the sea. Other survivors of Nargothrond were enslaved in the pits, others who had clearer memories of home, who did not flinch from her noises and her tears. In her face he drank misery.